drowning
laying face up, steadily sinking
in this blue, subtle body of water
pondering gracefully among my thoughts
I wish I were not my mother's daughter
so horizontally still, frozen is the seawater
dark thoughts consumed the thick white clouds
nostalgia of hell itself, largely avowed
suddenly a cessation of oxygen, no inhale
g r a d u a l l y
slipping into the sea of harmony
running from my life, every night was a challenge
my life was so chaotic and unbalanced
trying to live day to day, micromanaged
ending my life, ill and deeply damaged
drowning in the sea of freedom and lavish
extremely painful, not full of comfort
I should now be much tougher
but that woman genuinely made me suffer
imagine a child, smoking crack with their mother
it is a ghastly feeling like no other
it burns hotter than sulpher
I found her years later, what was I thinking
colossal mistake, I thought the memories had faded
invading my life, feeling so jaded
memories cutting like blades, water inundated
exquisite pain, crusade back once again.
—h.b. Woods
About the Creator
H.b. Woods
I am a mental health warrior; I battle it daily. I’m a mom to 5, a wife, a daughter, and a friend. Some of my poems are brutal as my ‘journey’ continues. Thank you for taking the time to read my poems.
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