Downstream From Hope

for so long, i've been victim to the waves, flooded with doubt‐

for how long, will i be left down here? somehow drowning in a drought‐

for too long, i've been swimming at the bottom of the ocean

moving with the motions, living in commotion

i've been down here for too long, i'm dying in slow motion

my blood and tears mix in the water as i continue descending in demotions

fear circles around me on my way down,

i'm drowning in emotions,

soon to be floating in false notions

anchored by the secrets i keep,

i can't see the light from down here, the water's too deep‐

and i can only sow from the flow that i reap

a fateful river brought me to this place that i sleep

without a voice to scream, a lost sheep

unguided and blind, soon to step off of impulse's steep

a soul in need that only a stream of sin continues to feed

i cannot climb, the hill of devotion is far too steep

how long? until my empty body floats across the top of the sea‐

my blotted mind, leashed by imagination‐ but is peace too far to see?

deafened by sheer emotion, i can only hear commotion

if only i could remove the motions

maybe i could find some kind of promotion

but until then, i can only accept the ocean

drowning in, my own soul

no hope for me to breathe

drowning in doubt, patterns new and old

soon to not have a soul to feed

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