Do you know how it feels
To slip away
To fade to somewhere else
To elsewhere
Do you know what it's like
To fight for consciousness
To fight the void
That threatens to take you
A surreal feeling settles around you
Like a curtain made of dreams
And subconscious musings
Falling softly
Covering the window
To the outside world
Dreams take you
Or try to
But you know
You're not sleeping
The witness in you sees you
Staring blankly
Gone from the world
Elsewhere
But nowhere
Lost in the void
In darkness
Scrambling in vain
Against the sides
Of the abyss
Desperate to get back
Your mind lies to you
Tells you it's safe there
But you know there's no danger
There's no immediate threat
Your mind has become confused
You know that's not where you belong
As you feel it come over you
You fight against it
Mindfulness exercises
You remind yourself quickly
Today is Tuesday
You tell yourself
Just trying to hold on
To a smallest piece of reality
You shred paper
To feel it tearing
You touch something cold
Desperate
To jolt yourself back
You eat something
Although you're not hungry
Hoping the feel
Of something on your tongue
Will pull you out of the dream
But your thoughts race wildly
Nothing stops them
Nothing slows them
Triggered by your own inner dialogue
Intrusive senseless nothings
Memories replayed
Against your wishes
Only to injure and wound
To maim and gouge
To attack brutally
Until mental blood pours
Drips down grey matter
Staining it black
Until the psyche withdraws
Until you dissociate to elsewhere
About the Creator
A. R. Ambrosi
I like to write, if that makes me a writer, then rock on!
I started writing as a child because I ran out of stuff to read. So, I only write stuff that I like. If you like it too, awesome! Enjoy! ^_^
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