Diary of a Troubled Mind

She's not okay, she knows she not

She thinks she has something inside that's rot

She sabotages anyone who comes close because she is scared to knot

She closes her ears but the voices don't stop

So many ties she decided to cut

So many battles, she fights with lust

A sinking ship that never go to dock

A sheep who stayed too far away from the flock

She sees hope, but she believes it's false

Feeling unworthy like an infested crop

She buried her feelings, believed it was a stumbling block

She wants to be alone on her mountain top

She says a prayer when she sees a cross

Offering total surrender and a coin she tossed

But she feels happy in the numb feeling when she gets drunk

Dancing and kissing anyone who would care to feel that void

Home alone anyways but she wants it to stop

She's struggling but scared to reveal it to her mum or pop

She's jumped out of the window, broken bones and shattered skull

10 days in coma, none she loved noticed she was there, not at all