Desires Eclipsed My Responsibilities

each time I gained your trust, I tarnished it just as I had time and time before

contrary to my words, my actions were only of selfish addictive lust

laying down each night in a bed of my own creation, a bed of anxiety, lies and duplicity

in deep and dark the pit of loathing and gratuity

Porneia was my anaesthetic from the dark, the dark that Porneia exacerbated

so wrapped in my own impulsive desires, I was, as they

eclipsed my responsibilities and the opportunity for real joy, love and connection

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