Dear Sister

Dear Sister,

Don't worry,

I'm right behind you,

I'm coming for you.

But you didn't wait,

instead you pushed the blade so deep,

went right through your heart and into mine.

You died,

yet I survived,

only left with these deep wounds.

And a broken heart,

that I'm sure will never heal anytime soon,

because with the end of your life,

you signed mine.

I would have died in your place,

hung on a cross,

for your sake.

I would have wiped every tear,

I would bear a flogging in your place.

Would have taken the burden of

every sorrow and every pain,

but now all I have is your memory to hold on to.

And with each passing day,

more and more details keep slipping away,

I would have gone to hell and back for you.

All you had to do was stay alive,

but instead you took your own life.

I’m slipping away,

I wished I had told you I love you everyday,

But would it have made any difference?

You hurt me,

I try to forgive you,

I make every excuse,

that it was a mental illness.

I know the sorrows,

because I lived them,

Why couldn't you just wait?

Don't you remember the plans we made,

I promised I would see you,

and I did.

But by then you were already gone,

and they lowered you into the ground,

And I'm supposed to say goodbye.

Forever,

I love you,

Infinitely.