Dear God (6/29/23)

Dear God..

“I’ll be honest..

I feel… defeated, Alone, Forsaken, Empty, Angry & Lost..

Ever since I lost My Twin

My World just seems to be torn apart..

I’ve been simultaneously making sure everyone doesn’t feel alone & fighting my loneliness..

The voices are back & the dreams are too..

Except I’m not afraid anymore because I’m ready for it all this time..

I can see the Devil again in the reflection of my empty glasses of Crown.. But I can see he’s still terrified to approach me from what happened last time.

But I’m honestly concerned about Death so I’m trying my best to stay a few steps ahead..

Jokes on him tho, I still plan to die..

I know I sounds ungrateful & bitter..

I’m just hurt I guess..

I have so much to do, I just hope I don’t continue to do it alone..”