I feel something growing deep within me
Encroaching towards everything that once made me happy
Always thinking about the negatives in every situation
To the point where I can't control it, it has become an addiction
They said light comes at the end of the tunnel
But what if my tunnel is just single open-ended?
What if happiness doesn't show up and I am comforted by sorrow?
I wish I could pay to be happy but I cant afford it either though
I don't know if it's the darkness that has kept me alive thus far
Have I given it a seat in my heart with no strings attached?
Now I can barely even sleep without having nightmares in between
Sometimes waking up in tears saying " oh God , are you even listening?"
I try every time to leave but I still see myself in this same battle field
I am tired of asking for a sign because even if I see it , I don't seem to yield
Then I resort to drinking , not much to get drunk but enough to hang onto memories
Maybe reminisce the good days and my mistakes that led to where I am mentally
Empathy is still there but barely
numb to emotions, threading carefully
feeling like everyone close to me is drunk on pretence
Oh what I would give to be refunded my innocence
The darkness just keeps getting darker
But I am still fighting while low on energy in my might
If there is hope, let it find me faster
I mean the darker the darkness, the brighter the light , right?
About the Creator
Harydo Neon
I drain my thoughts through my pen. That's the only way I breathe.
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