Dancing With Myself

the want

to not want

at all...

might just be the worst

of them all, but

not my first fight with desire,

and my wish

to never wish again

is certainly dangerous, but

i've already made it,

and i know

that ignorance isn't actually bliss

but dismissal-

like a curse

disguised as a gift-

the voice of numbness:

"i'd rather feel nothing than feel this..."

whatever "this" may be...

but this...

is not my first fight with desire,

neither my second,

nor my third-

me, myself, and i

the three extremes which i stand between:

love, hate, and apathy...

the choices that they are

and everything they breed...

thoughts

feelings

actions

wants

but...

the want

to not want

at all,

and my very dangerous wish

to not have any,

might just be...

the first time that me, myself, and i

don't disagree-

of all things

on which to come to a consensus

this...

might just be the worst, but

will this?...

finally be my last fight with desire?

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