Moving through life in this body that never felt like mine
A mind that I never could be in charge of
Take notes, so I don’t stand out.
Smile more, be polite, male gaze.
Obstruction of air to my lungs, becomes my normal
It’s better this way, even if everything around me has become gray and dull
At least everyone else is comfortable.
Seeking refuge I find your art
My heart explodes, and screams we can’t live like this anymore
The cells of my body dance in rhythm
My eyes thirst for healing
Drinking in people who are just like me.
I cut my hair to see myself, to see me.
I move my arms to grab my notebook
And it’s the first time it feels like I am moving them myself.
The sigh of relief that comes from the darkest part of my belly
Flows out opening my airways ‘
and says
You’re finally here.
I pirouette through each day
Singing with the breeze
Loving harder
Crying more
Feeling everything
I never knew food could taste this good
Or sleep could be so restful
Reintroducing myself to my people
The coziness and ease
Into life that once felt so difficult
I swear I can see glitter in the sun.
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Missy Banana
I always dreamed of having an anonymous blog back in the blogging hey days. Maybe I missed the fad but I still crave a space to just exist. It probably isn't that anonymouse but it's wortha shot.
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That was incredible! Very relatable, feeling like you HAVE TO be a certain way, but finally waking up and realizing who you are and who you should be! I loved it!