Coming Unraveled

This is a beautiful photo, to the naked eye, of the sun going down, and it is exactly how I feel.- Going down
I am coming apart at the seams
My husband's illness is getting to me
Please God Help Me

I am praying Tuesday when my sister and I go up to Newark Delaware
That the doctor has the answers
He probably will just make more appointments, I cannot make
It costs me $586 for medical transport as it is
Please God Help Me

Thirty seven long years, and many of them long years, he wasn't a perfect husband
However, this was difficult, he expects me to wait on him hand and foot
I have COPD, and a colostomy, and I have had a heart attack previously in 2016
Please God Help Me

They say it is the infection, they released him to me with pneumonia
Another hospitalization proved he had pneumonia again
He called 911 himself, and threatened to leave the hospital against medical advise
God Please Help Me

No one would pick him up, so I had to do it myself.
He is no better home than in the hospital, he is still coughing
They say he didn't qualify rehab or for physical therapy or occupational therapy
He can't even put his hoodie on without help
Please God Help Me

He says things he doesn't mean or does he?
I am not sure anymore
They said he didn't have pneumonia anymore
Then at a doctors visit the imaging place said he did
Please God Help Me

This is a true story, about my husband and I and yes we have been married thirty-seven years on November 13, 2026.

He saw me through the death of my 44 year old son, and we bought this home together. However, I don't know how long I can take this.

His illness is not short term, it isn't long term either, it is all the time. I wake up in the morning, and I know what will happen, more of the same. More than that I cannot even get a good night's rest, I have insomnia.

I had a social worker out here the other day, from the Division of Aging and he told her I was starving him to death. I told her his mental state was such, as he makes up things. He eats until he makes himself sick.

Please God Help Me

I am tired all the time, and exhaustion has me having panic attacks and the stress of it all makes me have panic attacks.

Please God Help Me- Hear My Prayer

I will end this article the way I always do all my articles unless they are for challenges.

Please Pray For Peace

Please Stop The Violence

Please Be Kind To Each Other- It's still the best feeling around