Comfort in the Chaos

Comfort is supposed to be a warm cup of tea and a book you may never finish

and while there may be moments in which I gain a little peace in the world of Dorothy Parker

Comfort has always been found in the craziness of my everyday life

In the stimming of my Autistic son as he rocks our entire RV listening to music

In the creation of other worlds through my own writing

In late nights and sleepless morning

In living in a body that fights me everyday living with Lupus

At the age of 31 wondering at what time my body will finally fail me

Looking over at my son as a single mother wondering who will understand him like I do while I am gone

My comfort is in the chaos that is still bustling around me

that I get a chance to still experience the rush of life while I can

Having Lupus active in my thirties

Chaos is a part of the daily life in which I live

Chaos is the comfort that I choose