Cold Blue

Do you miss it?

Do you ever think about me—

Did you even care?

Did you ever really love me,

Or was I just someone there?

Does your heart ever ache with regret,

Or feel the weight of the debt?

I see you smile in pictures,

But I wonder what’s behind it—

What lives in your headspace?

I want you to feel every ounce of pain,

To understand my heartbreak wasn’t in vain.

You made me drown in distrust,

And still, I let you in—

I gave you love, gave you trust.

I dropped my guard, something I never do.

But you saw that opening—

And drove the blade through.

You reminded me why I don’t believe in second chances,

Why I never say yes to certain dances.

Why I pause when love comes near,

Why I question what I used to hold dear.

Being vulnerable—it got me cut.

You stabbed my heart,

Then walked off like it was nothing but.

You moved on so fast,

Like I was just a past task.

While I sat there, hurting,

You were already laughing.

You lied,

You played me,

You twisted it all—

Said it was love,

But you let me fall.

You should’ve just said you wanted space.

Not wasted my time,

Not smiled in my face.

But you made my world shine…

For a while.

Until you tossed me aside

Like I was never worth the trial.

I wasn’t trash—

I was treasure.

You just never knew how to measure.

You manipulated, lied,

Cut me deep, then said you tried.

And now you’ve done your final bow.

Moved on fast—

But I’ll never forget how.

Strangers to friends,

To lovers,

To strangers again.

It’s funny how the story ends.

It’s better this way—

Even if you did your worst.

I’m letting go.

You need to disperse.

I hope your replacement makes you feel alive.

I hope he makes your cold heart thrive.

But I hope—when the nights get silent and blue—

You remember me.

And what I gave to you.

I hope I haunt your thoughts,

That my touch never fades.

That you see my shadow

In every lover’s face.

You were never true.

Just a mask,

Pretty lies,

Disguised as something new.

Physically—beautiful.

But inside? I never knew you.

I fell in love with the idea of you…

And that’s what broke me in two.

So I hope my name still lingers.

Still burns on your tongue.

Because now,

I’m the one

With the final laugh.