Clouded

But you are already with me

Etched into my very bones

I will never forget you

Nor can I ever forgive you.

Pain and agony spill up my throat.

I cannot surrender to it.

Must fight it.

Cannot let it win.

Tears cloud my vision.

Blinding white light tunnels ahead.

Thrumming burns in my brain.

You did this.

This was your love.

Like a war hammer to my ribcage.

Shocked and violent.

Just let me go.

I gasp.

You scream.

I fall into blackness.

You disappear from view.

Empty. Vast. Stark.

Dying shouldn't be this hard.

Then warmth. Sun. Brilliant shine.

Your lips pressed to mine.

Stained with crimson.

Hands hold the pieces together.

Then nothing.

You finally let me go.

The void feels like a ghost.

Hollowed out and everlasting.

Nothing but the echoes of your mourning.

Still, you let me go.

Perhaps now I can start to forgive.