chapter 2
Is this a next chapter or just one long take
I try & think it easier to myself look back .
How my life at boarding school played out ,
Was also a mystery , well completely to me.
As again I just didn’t feel the daily plan.
Girls were all put together, in class, dining & sleeping.
I never got homesick, I just excepted my circumstances.
We were all very different, from class to companionship.
My mother wrote to me
We had a green velvet board & if you had a letter it was pinned to that.
I saw my friend s cry & feel pain for there families & yes I was good with my hugs, we all dealt with the alone survival naturally differently.
My first term , I didn’t see my parents for six weeks.
That now seems forever, my mother seemed more irritated by my hair in plaits than me !
Ofcourse not true but, something I remember being strange after not seeing me for so long.
How do I explain my feelings from there ? Somewhere I feel I didn’t have any.
Or, I did , but just had to be .
Where else was I going to be?
The only t as an adult I can express is I just didn’t feel somewhere or look for anything.
Time & emotionally I stopped, I did a lot of stuff for attention,
My class mates were in awe of my daring approach.
I know for certain I wasn’t showing off , I just was playing out me& I felt safe to do that,
I also didn’t care if the outcome.
I again was not solid.
I was vunrable, but challenging two halves that nobody really wanted to engage with me & equally I didn’t like me either.
When the holidays came.
I returned home & no one wanted to know me.
They had all continued their lives & moved on.
I again detached as I felt again, a different way about not feeling part of anything
About the Creator
Charlotte Emma Ce
A new a few & the the unforgiving ivory tower
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