Can You Cry?

I wish so desperately to be normal.

I long for

a day, even just

for one day,

without the constancy of pain and numbness

whispering loudly, doing

their best to block out all other emotions.

What is it like to feel

without another filter distorting

the way the emotion comes across?

What is it like to look forward to

90% of your

waking days

instead of feeling

the weight trying

to hold you to your bed

in your darkened room?

When you laugh, I

bet it doesn't echo

through your empty insides, mocking

your inability to feel the

joy that fills everyone else.

Can you cry when you feel intense sadness?