Calculated Beauties

I hoped in a renewal yet

i found change (to come)

As I passed the time

in nerves frayed and disappointments I lost will and whimsy in the christmases I spent without poinsettias

And yet I lie stuck in the unwanted pondering of another(s) life

another arc of frozen colors and dogged drama pollutes the halo of my current space

but in memories I hold another point of view

That lies dormant in collective ramblings

And waits in spoken sentiments

or is murmured in a quiet room of energies and soul promising a reprieve from

A relief from

the trampling of the abandonment of my defenses

as hostile as a lunatics pretenses

And

i laughed at the smirking

princess

who has forgotten

the power in cadence

in rhyme and rhythm.

While I wielded sword and word and tongue at the ‘queen’ who had not.