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Available

"Hey!"

"Hey. I'm busy. Is this important?"

"No, no. It can wait. Guess we'll talk later. I love-"

"*click*"

Already absent

Phone never even answered.

Another precious moment squandered

Another reminder that I'm substandard

Unruly undisciplined unmannered

And as always, I'm feeling angered

It is my most shameful vice

Rage boils out of the newest slice

The freshest scar

The old, familiar void

Rebellious tears

In hidden waterfalls

Summoned by sorrow

Driven by fury

Restrained by compassion

A war within myself

Rage and hate and hurt

'gainst loving memories

Gentle and soft and warm

-0-

Empathy stands betwixt myself and righteous rage

Empathy traps and locks my fury in a soft and gentle cage

Empathy knows the locks that hide away

Empathy tells me what you don't say

Empathy binds me to my knowledge

Empathy demands its homage

Of forgiveness layered thick

Of a bridge built by me

To you across a stormy sea

One built alone brick by brick.

-0-

Standing here

Torn between here and there

Stagnant in the flowing air

Waiting for the long and terrible second

Hiding between enunciations

Waiting for another observation

Questioning if this is the grand iteration

Waiting for your gentle reverberations

Hoping today to hear a responding exclamation

"-you..."

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