Broken heart

Under the moonlight, letting myself dive into thoughts, it felt like getting lost in the depths of negative-filled lands with slow music playing in the background. Everything was going well, so why this sudden drop in morale? It was like a child dropping their candy. Suddenly, everything they had dreamed of vanished in an instant.

Actually, everything started right here. When I saw you, when we met. It was in your gaze that questioned life to its smallest detail, in that mystery inside of me. So much so that even if I were a person with the ability to know everything, I could only feel this peaceful next to someone as sweet, special, and beautiful as you. Looking into your eyes, even in a photograph, filled me with happiness. When we met, I did everything I could to keep you from leaving my side. I couldn't bear to let go of your hand for fear of hurting you. The feelings that make me daydream and get lost in deep thoughts with your smile are simply something I never could have imagined. In short, everything with you is peaceful, happy, infinite, and full of hope. Even if I thought about it for forty years, I couldn't imagine it.

But there's a pain inside me that I can't stop, can't say stop to all of this. It's like falling to the bottom of the mind without being able to stop it, like sorrow. While feeding many emotions inside, happiness runs away. This situation isn't love or a treatment that won't heal. We must find the right answer. It's always the divine love. To reveal the inner thoughts with a hidden condition, to be killed by shapeless love and laugh, among dozens of straight lines, the logic becomes reversed when conscious. How smart are we when we know everything? And when we erase dozens of unnecessary things in our minds, we become capable of questioning and become the owner of human rights. It's hard to cope and move on with the unattainable thoughts within us. It's tight, and we can't get out of it. Even if humans know their existence, they don't know where to look for their feelings. Deceived by hearsay and stabbing daggers, it doesn't suit well with people's hearts. The majority speak the familiar words: "This is how it is because it's always been like this." A friend won't push you off a cliff. It's distressing to think about what we've become. No matter who speaks, these games and problems will never end…