Brand New Me

BRAND NEW ME

Lantern, in a hurricane

A frightful gust, I've lost my way

Friends are there

But voices now,

Fog and sleet

Clouds my brow,

I shout,

I scream,

I kick,

I tear,

Never escaping my own hair

Eyes closed shut,

Substance abuse,

A cliche way to steals ones youth

A desperate act,

A shout of pain,

Escaping; an attempted in vain

Disappointment, delves the depths

My mind, this ocean,

Of little consequence

Over the bow,

A song cuts deep

A mermaid shows a path to me

The trance I'm under,

I know it's wrong,

And yet I heed the sirens song

Over board, my body goes

My mind,

My thoughts,

Foreign,

Unknown

Down,

And down,

And down,

I go,

The ocean mirroring my own soul

A gasp, I think:

"Who is that?!"

I recognize not, the man who stares back

Alas I sink,

The deed is done

Memories,

A gush,

A flood,

They come

Warm the moments

I thought my last,

Before I felt,

A grip,

A grasp,

Resist I did,

Eyes tear to think.

I accepted,

I had reached the brink

A vice like hold, you pulled me forth,

My footsteps once more grace this earth

Loved ones, I know not what to say,

An apology?

A gesture?

Not this day

A binding contract, is what I seek: As I set sail,

My ship I'll not bottle,

Feelings are meant to be shared,

Not swallowed

When I feel anxious,

When I feel down,

Never again,

Will I look over that bow

For in the light,

You all made me see,

A brand new person,

A brand new me.