Brain Waves

Channel 1 - I should probably get up now. It’s already 8:30am. I don’t want to be - 

Channel 5 - a failure forever. I mess everything up. No wonder I’m alone. Who could ever love someone who can’t even get themselves out of bed? I wish I could -

Channel 1 - not be late for work. I need to sign in at 10:30am, so I should have enough time if I - 

Channel 3 - would just stop wallowing here in self pity and shame. I really am a burden aren’t I? Just - 

Channel 2 - please don’t let me be a burden. I don’t want to be this way. I didn’t ask for it. If only there was - 

Channel 4 - a way I could stop it? Change my brain and stop my mess of a life. Maybe if I just get up, I could - 

Channel 5 - mess up yet another part of getting ready. Like picking out what to wear. How can I be so stumped over what to wear when I only ever choose between one of three things! What a total - 

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Channel 3 - failure. Wow, I really am a mess, aren’t I? I just hate my brain. Why was I born with a mind like this? Maybe I -

Channel 2 - did something wrong? Was it because I wasn’t nice to Chloe when I was 5 years old and now I’m being punished? I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to be rude! I was just copying everyone else. I just wanted to - 

Channel 1 - fit everything in before 9:15am, and then I should be fine. It’s only a 10 minute drive, so I should still be on - 

Channel 2 - all the time! When will my brain just SHUT UP! I can’t take it anymore. I just want to - 

Channel 3 - stop lying in bed all day doing nothing but spiralling. I’m such a waste of space. I wish I could - 

Channel 2 - be like them. How do they do it? Get out of bed, get dressed, brush their teeth and go out to work. It’s all a breeze to - 

Channel 5 - people who are actually trying. Unlike me. All I do is complain and panic and apologise and cry and get angry and scream, and spiral. No wonder I’m failing. I don’t even try, I just - 

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