Another night alone in my head.
Accompanied only by thoughts I dread.
A night of poor choices
damned to listen to my inner voices.
Judging,
hating,
questioning,
most of all debilitating.
This pain
and the twisting strain
on my brain
Is sure to drive most insane.
Constantly asking what am I doing?
Where am I going?
Caught in this rut
fearing what I'll see when my eyes shut.
The dreamscapes are scarce
while nightmares are plenty
which is all too common when your empty.
Filled only with Self loathing
now manifesting
Through self destructing acts slowly defining a life
that has never been weakened by strife.
Never needing substance as a crutch.
Now vulnerable to its slightest touch.
Begging for salvation
or a revelation
from my obvious destination.
I've finished my preparation
but can't manage any action.
I'll tell myself it's time to end this sorrow,
but it's shortly followed by
“fuck it maybe tomorrow."
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