Birthday wishes

„Happy Birthday! I hope you have a wonderful day”

It feels again like it's the first time you text me for my birthday

Because for a decade you were right next to me on my birthday

You were always the first person to kiss me on my birthday

You would be the person I would be celebrating with on my birthday

But not anymore.

Now it’s a message on my phone’s screen

9 words, 38 letters and an exclamation mark on my phone`s screen

And I want to scream at my phone’s screen:

How could someone become a stranger who was my family?

How could I lose who I thought was a part of me?

I feel like I’m falling apart

I feel like it was yesterday that we parted

But then I remember that it was many years ago that we were a we

That we both have new wes that we are part of now

And when my new you asks if everything is okay

I stop staring at that message on my phone

That message from the past

And I type “Thank you”

And wonder if you will count the letters, too.