Believe Me, Something is Wrong
RE:SURGENCE; poems about mental illness
No, this is not a phase
This is an enrage
This is an anger;
Self-hatred stewing in a boiling vat
A confusion of the senses
Determining who the enemy is
No, this is not a trend
This is a revolution
This is a realization of disrepair
A faulty wire throwing off sparks
Engulfing dreams in a hungry blaze
No, this is not in my head
This is a scar
This is a physical decay
A shattering of quaint reality
Of how far I will go
To be released from this hell
No, this is not fake
This is real
This is tears shed quietly
Muffled by pillows and silent screams
This is a body-turned-corpse
Functioning only on inputs and instinct
This is a heartbreak not easily mended
A rendering of the soul hastily applied
Neglected and ignored
Left for death
No, this is not what you perceive
But it is something
That should still be believed
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This is the 15th poem in RE: SURGENCE, a poetry collection by Amanda Starks that shares what it's like to have and fight against mental illness in a free-form, lyrical prose.
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Amanda Starks
Lover of the dark, fantastical, and heart-wrenching. Author of RE: SURGENCE, a poetry collection about mental illness, released exclusively on vocal.media. Subscribe to my free newsletter at www.amandastarks.com for updates!
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ergh, this hurts to read but is stunning. I love it all but This is a scar "This is a physical decay A shattering of quaint reality Of how far I will go To be released from this hell" just, YES!!!!
What a raw, beautiful, authentic portrayal of the subject. You certainly have a way with words and putting emotion into your poetry. Thank you for sharing this with us.
Pure and authentic writing!!! Honestly and splendidly written giving voice and words to the anguished!!!❤️❤️💕
Thank you for giving words to this and making me feel less stupid 🤍
As someone who's been through this myself, this is so brutal and honest. Brilliant work! :)
Great thoughts! Good work!