B O O T S
A story about a man, some boots, and a tombstone.
Where did the beautiful deception vanish off to
On this cold, wondrous night of infidelity?
Where did those staggering footsteps lead
After they slipped into the street,
Joining the slosh of black snow and dirt?
It isn’t home.
They never came home.
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But if not home,
If not a house covered in trembling tiles,
Crooked stones sloughing off their outer layer,
Where did they go before dipping into the cemetery
And saying goodnight
To the dark corners of spring where thawing horrors
Were casually revealed with apologies and crimson rose petals?
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The bobbing hats weaving in and out of carriage traffic
Could never have a semblance of a clue.
Neither could the tightly buttoned jackets of solicitors
Understand the meandering path of the boots.
But I let the polluted air sweep through my hair
And my jacket has long been in disrepair.
I can see the end and the beginning, the journey.
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It started with the aggressive lean of the trees to the East.
Tips of tall branches turned their gaze to the row of homes,
The slum where men wept and women clawed
At the bricks while their children
Teethed on coal and sucked poisoned milk
Into their starving, hollow bellies
With Cheshire grins splitting open their mouths.
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The grey clouds followed the lean,
Brushing wet fingertips across the canopy of leafless trees.
The vulnerable underbelly of the clouds lowered,
Covering the pebbled road with grey puffs of fog.
The trees shuddered. The clouds settled. Darkness smothered the day.
Below the clouds, breathing in the smoke of a freshly rolled cigarette,
He watched.
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His mouth was a chimney, the plumes of smoke curling from his lips
Like the broken promise of sunshine.
The lit embers glowed brighter as he slurped the tobacco
Into his lungs and pushed it out from his mouth
With the thoughtless rhythm of life
Until a ferocious gale knocked the fag from his fingertips
Into the dribbling liquid of the gutter.
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And then, there was silence.
The clouds paused suddenly and the last carriage had turned
Down some rarely used alley filled with human filth.
No clop of hooves thunked against his ears.
The children had ceased their wailing.
Even the low, humming drone of the factory pouring itself
Into the black river had settled into a comfortable quiet.
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It was never so still, so tranquil.
The man’s dirty fingers trembled without the noise there
To swaddle him in blankets of ignorance.
The arrhythmic beat of the drum in his chest tripped, stuttered,
And finally stopped searching for its beat as it relaxed into normal
Sinus rhythm; a breath of clean air hissed past his lips.
It shattered with an ugly cry of pleasure.
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That high-pitched moan rattled the windows on the street,
Banged furiously against his temples
As grey eyes slowly blinked back the pressure of grief
Squealing like a kettle in his chest.
Outside himself, he turned to the candle-lit window
Floating in the darkness high above the muddied stoop of his home.
Dancing in the glass were two undulating shadows.
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The revelation that he had yet to enter his home slapped him
Hard and fast like the sound of skin on skin seeping through
The drafty windowpane because at long last, he was early.
Early enough to spend a promised sunny afternoon with his love,
His life, his wife, the reason behind the dirty nails and soiled suit.
Early enough to cradle her clean cheeks between his rough hands
And kiss her until he forgot his woes.
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But she was occupied with the attentions of another.
Dreaming and dancing and seducing in their home.
The bed he had carved as a wedding.
The window he fixed after sixteen-hour work shifts.
Did she eat meals with this stranger too? Break bread that he had
Slaved to earn, stolen at times, to keep her stomach quiet
And her corners soft with the pleasures of life?
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A low voice grunted out a word, something that sounded akin
To love that made the man’s world spin; that ratcheted a rope
Around his ribcage and pulled until he could no longer breathe.
He staggered sideways, slipping over the cobbled walkway and
Slamming into the wall hard enough to give them pause.
That voice, melodic and rough, gently stern, starred in his childhood.
It was the sound of laughter, of summer and shenanigans.
The sound of his brother.
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He ran.
Drinking heaving gulps of air with his coattails flapping wildly
In the frigid cold wind behind him, he moved through the streets
As little more than a black blur, pressing sloppy bootprints in his wake.
Meaningless emptiness seized his heart and squeezed
Until the sour tang of iron filled his mouth and tears,
Warm and salty, trailed lines down his cheeks, spilling from his chin.
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And so he stood amidst the headstones,
Running a warm, leathered hand over the cool, wet marble
Before collapsing to his knees in the mud and weeping across
Some tombstone he hadn’t even bothered to read.
His stomach clenched around the acidic sorrow, threatening
To toss up his small crumb of a meal, the one he had stashed
In his pockets for her, his heartbeat.
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The man shook his head, scattering raindrops and the empty dream
Of golden rays of sunshine and honey eyes crinkling at the corners
With the laughter only he thought he could bring.
Beneath it all, he broke, crumbling against the white tombstone and
Smudging the dirt of his life all across the regal name carved into stone.
The tears stopped as a flickering, fading smile replaced the downturned lips.
It was over, wasn’t it?
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Silver Serpent Books
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Silver Serpent Books
Writer. Interested in all the rocks people have forgotten to turn over. There are whole worlds under there, you know. Dark ones too, even better.
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