At A Loss

There’s so much I want to say,

but no one is there to hear it.

There was so much I wanted to know,

but now I feel like it’s all been forgotten.

I hate that I feel like I have to apologize

when you were the one who disappeared.

I had hopes.

I thought we were getting closer.

I see you online,

but you don’t message me.

I want to reach out,

but I don’t know what you consider “important”.

Since I feel unimportant to you,

I dare not message you.

Lame isn’t it?

My lack of confidence is from

lack of communication.

I don’t want to be the only one trying.

I don’t want to be alone.

I feel so alone.