Formerly, assuming I remember correctly, my life was a banquet, wherein all hearts were open, and all wines flowed. One night, I sat beauty on my lap.—And I found her to be bitter.—And I hurled abuse at her.
I have armed myself against justice.
I have made an escape. Oh witches, oh misery, oh hate, it is to you my treasure I do confide! I managed to make vanish from my spirit all the hope of humanity. For all the joy of strangling hope, I pounced as silently as a ferocious beast.
I called the executioners to come forth, as I lay dying, so that I might gnaw the grips of their guns. I called for the scourge to choke me with sand and blood. Catastrophe has been my deity. I dried off in the air of crime. And I took great joy in playing puzzling pranks.
And Spring brought me the dreadful laughter of the imbecile.
However, always, as of late, I find myself to be on the verge of making the last quack! I once dreamed of finding the key to my feasts of old, so I might reawaken my former hunger.
That key was charity!—This inspiration alone proves that I am a dreamer.
"A hyena you will remain, etc." So crows the Demon, who crowned me with a laurel of friendly flowers. "Go! Earn your death with all of your gluttony, your pride, and your intoxicating sin."
Ah, I have taken too much! My sweet Satan, I beseech thee: view me with a less irritated eye, you who, in the writer, are most in love with those who lack the ability to describe and instruct; and, while we wait for a few small, slow lapses of mine to emerge, I offer you these hideous leaves from my notebook of the accursed.
About the Creator
Tom Baker
Author of Haunted Indianapolis, Indiana Ghost Folklore, Midwest Maniacs, Midwest UFOs and Beyond, Scary Urban Legends, 50 Famous Fables and Folk Tales, and Notorious Crimes of the Upper Midwest.: http://tombakerbooks.weebly.com
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