April 13, 2018

I'm starting to wonder if things

are meant to be kept quiet

everything is better if it's all

hush hush and in the dark

I always constantly wonder

if i am good enough

good enough to be friends with

good enough to be with someone

but then I have to remember that

I am not for everyone

I want to be someones

"all the time" not their

"sometimes"

and I can't seem to find a

decent person who feels the same

exact way

I wish for the unspeakable i guess

i wish for something that has to be a

myth

why would anyone want to be with

a person who spends all of her time

writing and reading

reading and writing

why would anyone want to be with

a person who is all about forgiveness

and love and light and happiness

why would anyone want to be with

a person who has seen nothing but heartache

and yet wishes for something from

a Hallmark movie

i constantly ask myself

why...

I'm starting to wonder if things

are meant to be kept quiet...