Anxietea
a poem about mental health
When I feel anxious, I drink tea
It’s pure Camomile and it’s meant to calm my nerves
You know how you just hang onto information sometimes
While other stuff is filtered out and forgotten
I hang onto this information with both hands
When I get anxious it comes in different forms
I can get a giddiness in my chest
And feel like I have a lot of energy
Other times it’s just at the edge of my mind
It’s not gone but I can manage to ignore the sense of doom
I tell myself that
Yes, I locked the door
No, I’m not going to crash the car
It’s not as bad as I feel it is
Other times
It’s so strong it feels oppressive
Like a physical weight is pushing me down
Making it hard to move
Hard to breathe
I’m breathing fast because something is wrong
But I don’t know what it is
This impending sense of doom
I don’t know why it is
Happening
I feel this overwhelming sense of dread
And I feel like crying
I grip the sheets
Looking around trying to find the source of my fear
But there is nothing
So, I make some tea
Hair still dripping from the shower
The towel wraps loosely around my chest
I stand by the jug as it starts to bubble
Grabbing any mug because my favourite ones are dirty
I steep the tea
Watch as the water changes colour
Clear to yellow
I hold the mug in both hands
The warmth is comforting
And then I take a sip
Hoping it will soothe me once more
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About the Creator
Ashlea Bicknell
Writing has always been and will continue to be one of my biggest passions
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