Anger

I admire anyone who doesn’t hold a grudge

When I’m angry I just can’t budge

I admire anyone who forgive

Being bitter is no way to live

I admire anyone who leaves vengeance abroad

They go on and act as if they forgot

I admire anyone who can love in pain

Please tell me where they trained

I admire anyone who gets a good night’s sleep

I stay up watching myself slaughter sheep

Sometimes this pain is too much to bear

The smallest trigger and my temper flares

I don’t sleep and I am not at peace

I’m holding on tight, I just can’t release

When will the desire for vengeance leave me?

When will I finally be free?

These thoughts run marathons in my mind

I am doing circles, stupid and blind

My heart feels and my tongue follows

This reality has been hard to swallow

I do things and I know that I shouldn’t

Doing the very things, I said I wouldn’t

Running a list with growing names

For everything that goes wrong, that list is to blame

It is clear a decision must be made

Harboring rage won’t get me paid

Eating my anger won’t shed the weight

Looking for ways to replay the tape

There is no future in yesterday

Alcohol has proven a hapless mistake

So here goes nothing, I am letting go

Life goes on, on with the show