Am I

I miss me -

A mirage,

The essence.

Before you.

Now my smile,

A façade.

Before the deception,

A version

Once happy.

Easier then,

At least,

What I remember.

Before -

When exactly,

I'm not sure.

A point in time,

Preceding -

What transpired.

Whatever the fuck

That was.

What was that.

Honestly.

Perhaps -

We were never

Really friends

At all.

Fuck, maybe.

I never was,

Full stop.

The version

I believe I was.

All along,

The version

I knew before

Was a mirage.

And only now,

The façade

Has fallen.

The version

That I miss

No longer exists.

The essence?

Of what.

I never was.