Am I Beautiful Yet?

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I starved myself from one fifty
down to eighty four
They said that I'd be beautiful
if I lost a little more
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I kneeled above the toilet bowl
and choked until I bled
Exhausted, hollow, shaking
with a poison in my head
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I bought the fake extensions
to fill out my 'too fine' hair
I painted on a smile
to cover up despair
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I injected the Ozempic
to erase that final meal
I prayed the pills would numb the pain
they told me not to feel
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They told me, "Love your body!"
in a filtered beauty ad
while selling me a diet plan
for every extra pound I had
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They yap about acceptance
while they measure every inch
and profit off our quiet tears
They never even flinch
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Am I beautiful yet?
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They want a tiny, cinched-in waist
but giant hips and bust
a contradiction carved in flesh
to satisfy their lust
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Go slice your stomach, suck the fat
make your cheek bones high
filter every photograph
and live a fucking lie
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Glue on the lashes! Bleach your teeth!
Go paralyze your brow!
Smooth out the wrinkles on your skin!
You're oh so beautiful now!
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Wait! Shave off the hair! Erase your pores!
Don't let a texture show!
If you break some capillaries,
it will give you a 'natural glow'!
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Drop down a size... but keep the curves!
Don't age a single day!
You can look young forever...
if you're willing to pay
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Don't eat that! It's bad for you!
Drink protein shakes instead!
No, you are not hungry!
Skip dinner! Go to bed!
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Am I beautiful yet?
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Girls gagging on the glamour
while they purge upon the floor
corpses wrapped in lace and pink
and they keep pushing us for more
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Stomachs roar in agony
hearts begin to skip
while they rub toxic plumper
on a bleeding, swollen lip
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We're counting calories in ice
and counting steps we walk
while we get torn down
by the cruel way that they talk
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If you're big, you're lazy
but if you're thin, you're sick
they set the trap and wait for us
to fall for every trick
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Wrap your waist in corsets
till your ribs begin to crack
inject the filler in the jaw
and straighten up your back
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Tuck in the skin, lift up the breasts
be sure and eat your kale!
Buy your way to Paradise
by living in a hell
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Am I beautiful yet?
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Keep going! Almost there!
Just sacrifice your health
A billion dollar industry
just growing in their wealth
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They sell the cure for bullshit
that they manufacture first
and leave us dying in the dust
consuming our own thirst
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She broke her bones. She cut her skin
She threw up every bite
She faded out to nothing
in the middle of the night
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She gave you every ounce of flesh
and bowed to your decree
Then you laughed at her for saying,
"There's nothing left of me"
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Is she beautiful yet?
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