After the Party
New Beginnings
The dust settles
The last firework pops
The July moon glows
And laughing voices grow quieter
Softer
and slower
As the crowds ebb and flow around me
I look at another night alone
"Bye, love you"
"see ya"
"Will you be here, tommorow?"
They call to me in normalicies and and parting gestures
I answer in part with appropriate faces and like gestures
But I feel nothing
The voices grow softer still
Car doors slam
engines rev
and everyone leaves for home
I am still standing
Alone
Nobody chose me
No one chose me to the school dances
In the school line ups for sports
No one ever chose a life with me
To come home with me
Okay I am okay with that
That’s actually fine
I still have me
I can make it
I am resourceful
But every now and then
Time stops and slows around me
And I stop for a moment
Mentally
As the lonliness
of THEM not wanting me
haunts my present
Sense of equilibrium
And as I get older
It feels like my mind breaks momentarily
As I stumble around inside of my own head
In contemplation of the nothingness
A stillness that occurs
Like trauma
A coping mechanism
A stop for a moment
And wait until it stops hurting
A wait until
I can actually move forward again
A stop for a moment
And adjust
While my mind works stoic
To keep itself
To wrap itself back around and into
Sane
Rational
Capable
A retrieval of function
To the incongruency
Of the stark realism
Of the appalling absurdity
Of anymore continued
Lonliness.
As I startle awake
I breathe deep
The night warm and sharp with sensory harmony
Of summer night bliss
The vaulted sky of ceiling and stars
Cool night air sweetened by the heat of day
The velvet cloak of night and it’s stark contrasts
And silhouetted shadows
Moon and trees
Glows and darkened scapes
I take a long breath
Exhale
And look forward to other days
I walk towards my own car
Arms tightly wrapped around my self
Protectively
About the Creator
Melissa Eaves
I am an freelance writer. I love the written word and the poetry of my soul is expressed by mastery of it.
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Nice work
Very well written. Keep up the good work!
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Eye opening
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