Absolutely denied happiness

yes you’re denied

That terrible slice of heaven

Yes thank goodness

You didn’t get that big gulp of relief

There’s nothing inside, nothing to do

It’s all about the same black static wealth,

That pitch dark, gripping room.

You tear me down

Like you’ve down for so many years

My deep sleep like melancholy had only begun

You woke it up

And taunted my trauma

And reopened the sounds

Of my haunted past

Laughing at my pain

Indifferent to my tears

Angry at my love

Now, you cling to me like a child and I

Am denied

Absolutely denied happiness

Because you stretch out your trauma to me,

So you won’t feel so lonely.

You want me to be dependent on you

But really it’s you who need me,

And I am thankless

Drowning,

Deep inside of my heart,

A severed artery away from numbing

Deep sleep death.