a r t i c[ant] u l a t e

fuzzy doodle clouds above my head

scrambled thoughts

a roller coaster for the brain

what is bothering you today?

this couch isnt comfortable

just start with the first thing that comes to mind

these association games dont work you know

how about just -- how are you feeling?

is this a joke?

a rhetorical question?

you must suspect the answer

and your suspicions are right, otherwise i wouldnt be here

right?

what is bothering you today?

about a million things

can you tell me one?

i cant even admit them to myself, let alone to you

my breath is the only accurate display of needs my body will give

my lungs are aching for air but my mind isnt so bold

to tell its desires to you so clearly

just one thing thats bothering you?

this isnt working

this sounds like avoidance

avoidance?

how can i avoid something i dont even recognize

how can i avoid something that i dont acknowledge

the only evidence that it exists is the tears and the self deprecation

but that could be anything

right?

i think its time we talk.

but you still dont get it

i dont know how.