A Monsters Fu*king Night

People treat you how you feel

At least that’s what they say

You can attract each good or bad

Why they’ll treat you a certain way

Is it just plain energy

Or pheromones or spite?

A twitch, a give

Some sign of where

It comes from, shed a light.

Some will tell you karma

Some will say young soul

Some will say just give it up

It’s just a stupid hole.

Life can be so easy

My mind’s what makes it hard

Do I deserve this, did I create this

My chaos leaked out from my art

It’s like they could’ve smelled it

My injured battered wounds

My broken body, bandaged soul

My crying at glazed moons

My frozen fear

Time stops, so still

I’m holding in my breathe

Then out a scream

My cry it did ring

Until grips restrain me inept

And then say what now

Why again and again

I thought I was carful

I said never again

But the moment came quick

As My comfort sank in

My guard down for a second

And the monsters move in

My light in the dark

Stands out oh so bright

He just has to have me

It’s his fucking night

That’s not why I came

I don’t want to leave

I crave social friendships

Not scuzzballs and sleeze

Take your hand off my neck

Keep your lips to yourself

Fuck away from my pussy

It’s up on a shelf

You don’t deserve me

You never will

You had to drug me

Against all my will

And my light that they see

It still shines on, still bright

For the monsters I battled,

I fucking ate whole that night.

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