A day to let myself Mourn

Today, I'll let myself mourn,

the loss of their potential,

I'll let myself ache in self pity,

and squander the day away,

I'll let myself be disappointed,

and feel the hurt that comes with being unwanted,

I will let myself feel,

All the emotions,

Because that is how to break open and heal,

Today, I will let myself mourn,

An ending to an excitment,

The loss of a connection,

The alienation of being alone, again

I will let myself feel,

Drawn to my bed, canvasing in my dread,

Because tomorrow I will wake up and begin to heal,

I will not dismiss my thoughts,

I will not let myself get lost,

in the fact that I am not enough,

Although they became another person,

that turned into a lesson,

That has no measure on who I am,

I deserve to be loved,

and have that person hold space for what I have to give,

It just wasn't them,

my heart is not broken, just a little sore,

And for that,

I'll give myself a day to mourn.