A Christian Guy Won’t Like Me
Sad truth
I’ve been used
I’m mentally abused
Substance abuse so what’s the use .
The world has seen me.
rather it was intentionally or forcefully.
I chased the money and it made life change drastically.
I come with too much drama.
I know I couldn’t be the girl you bring home to mama .
I was once the innocent church girl that Believed the American dream.
The kids ,to be a wife,get some land ,raised through God .
But I feel like sod.
I wasn’t even good enough to do his promised job.
Every night I lay there in gnawning sob.
But the life I got was everything but a glimpse gleam.
I prayed every night and day .
It got worse with time I’d say .
I asked the church woman and she said all men would turn away.
Lost reassurance because my prayers weren’t being heard .
The helpless lamb that wondered off from her herd.
I didn’t specify but I’m starting to realize she didn’t lie.
As I got older this life developed from all the damage trying to cope.
Thinking there’s still hope.
But there I was looking for a single cell under a microscope.
I lost everything I ever needed.
But no one gave me the chance ,so I never could conceive it .
I just think god gave up on me and shut me out ,
that’s what I have the fear of doubt.
Maybe one day someone would see.
But I know a Christian ✝️ guy won’t marry me .💔😭
About the Creator
PoeticallyPurple24
I’m told I have a natural gift so let’s see how meaningful it really is !🥰
I used writing as a coping mechanism to get me through hardships in life .My goal is to become a poet that will change the world .I hope you can see my gift shine .
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