30

"I'm not where I thought I'd be",

I thought to myself on my birthday eve

I took a sigh of relief.

I thought I'd be married and a mother

I thought my world would be a different color.

I thought I'd be religious and faithful,

Where I am now, I would have thought was disgraceful.

I thought I'd be back in my hometown

Still worrying about the things I used to worry about.

I thought I'd be successful with plenty of wealth

All thanks to my husband, wouldn't have to pay for anything myself.

I'd just raise our children, and fit the mold

I'd feel like 30, was really old.

But here I am, in the last moment of my twenties

It doesn't look like much, but I have more than plenty.

I've finally found a life of my own,

I've found people who make me feel truly known.

A best friend as a lover, better than I ever thought

I live a life of love and I do what I want.

I now see 30 as just a number,

Because somehow, I have never felt younger.

So yes, "I'm not where I thought I'd be."

I'm much happier,

I'm wild,

I'm free.