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To keep peace, we both know that I’ve tried

but there are moments when I really despise being the good guy.

And there are times when I just want to pick up the phone,

dial your number but it’s a shame

that I can’t bring myself to do it, I hate the fact that we are so estranged.

I hope you're feeling better now.

Is it all worth it to somehow

make me feel like I've never really mattered to you?

And what the hell am I supposed to assume

when everyone but me is allowed to feel the way they do?

I honestly always wanted to make you proud.

Always needed you but now I think I'm better on my own,

better off alone without the drama, time will tell if I'm the problem

or if these issues would be reoccurring and unresolved

even after I'm gone.

There are some of us, like me, who are still hoping for second chances

while recompense is granted to others facing similar circumstances.

The answers, though they're honest aren't enough to mend what's broken

but I promise that above all else, I'll keep trying.

I'm hoping you get this message

and it’s not too late to rebuild from the wreckage.

I don’t care about being right, I just want this to be better...