20
20 was lost
20 was feeling found
20 was knowing what was best and doing the worst
20 was self-righteous fury and the arrogant absurdity of youth
20 is a broken memory of Captain Morgan and Jack Daniels screaming Viva Chavez at 4:00 AM in a Denny’s Parking lot
20 was a rusty syringe, discarded in an old dumpster in North Lawndale
20 was endless parade of flag draped coffins returning from the deserts of Babylon
20 was Mission Accomplished
20 was a cocaine fueled WMD hurtling towards our own destruction sippin' 40s, waving two one finger salutes and screaming Fuck Bush at anyone that would listen
20 was bare knuckle boxing in alleyways and parks, choking on the blood, and getting up the next morning with smile plastered across my face
20 was thinking that I was special
20 was thinking that we were unique
20 was being the most childish adult
And the most adult child
20 was mistakenly thinking that somehow,
It could never get any worse
(little did we know)
20 was that night that Marky Mark and Gerald fell off that third story balcony in the middle of the night
20 was lying to the cops
20 was a tragic accident, so we said
20 was those round faced officers scoffing at our camaraderie
Why protect somebody like this?
20 was telling them to fuck all the way off.
20 was an endless parade of heartbreak and deceit,
A never ending journey on a Greyhound bus through the heart of the Middle West in the dead of night, knowing, just knowing that an answer to our problems lay just around the bend up ahead
But all that we found was a drunken truck driver at a gas station outside Madison, swearing that he had seen some shit
20 was dead bodies floating in the tepid waters of the deep south
20 was the worst good year
20 was the best bad year
20 was a terrible first date
20 was being trapped inside a cancerous lung, powerless to do anything more than lay there helplessly, watch it slowly throb and breath it’s last breath
Before it died alone in obscurity
20 was seeing the Barbarians of Greed, Lust and Selfishness at the gate
And opening the fucking front door,
Waving them on in, because they’re all that are welcome here now
20 was an empty, cracked smile
It’s all okay, after all,
You’ve always got Zoloft, King Cobra and Grass to keep you company
Hey, as long as they keep the nightmares at bay, it’s all good to me
(Probably won’t live to see 21 anyhow)
20 was letting the devil out of his pen to run amok
20 was breathing smoke and touching fire
20 was feeling ice cold and alone
20 was collective madness
20 was watching everyone fiddle away as Rome burned to the ground
Unaware, that this, in all its hedonistic vainglory, was the the last day before the End of the World
20 was joining in because the music of destruction was just so damn good
20 was a walking dream,
Impossible to piece together now
20 was broken glass
20 was confused metaphors and jumbled emotions
20 was lost
20 was feeling found
20 will never come again, if it ever truly ended
20 will never end, if it ever truly started
20 was.
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