1 more time

Maybe I can't control the monster inside

so how do I come to grips with who I am?

I am split between a reality of loneliness

& a reality of greed.

I don't know where to begin

But more importantly I don't know how to finish.

As I sit here at my keyboard typing away at this monstrosity

I can't help but feel a lack of encouragement to proceed with my endeavors

I try to change my perception of reality so I can carry on

But no matter what I have tried it all fails in the end..

I used to be able to see clearly my story that is written in the Stars above,

But now the lines have become blurred due to my absence of acceptance

I don't want to keep the Facade going anymore but I can't find my true identity in the mist of things.

I refuse to end things in a bad fashion

So I still try my best to find my way.

It just gets old when you have to keep telling yourself to try "1 more time"