Journey of a Woman

The familiarity of life comes with awareness. I don't remember what I was before what I am now. I can recall moments, thoughts, actions, but never a state of mind. I mostly find myself trying to figure out what I was thinking.

Our life journey is unique to each individual. In order to really progress, we must accept this to the fullest. This takes sacrifice, pain, reflection. Absorbing everything you put out there until there is an internal explosion. DEATH.

Till death do we part.

Nothing is found unless it is constructed, and something can only be constructed if it was once deconstructed.

The essence of creation itself requires some form of obliteration. What to scientists do before putting medicine out to the masses? Well, they test it on rats, this is a form of deconstruction because there are many dead rats before reaching the final formula that cures instead of kills.

We can use this through out any form of creation. There is always a struggle before the new birth. Nothing is given without reciprocation; the balance of the universe.

You want something? You better believe you'll be sacrificing something in return.

Sacrifice

I wouldn't attempt to tell you what this means for you. I could assume that you are pretty attached to your phone and I could say that a sacrifice would be to turn your phone off for a day, a week, a month. This would be common denominator among us humans. The thing I can't answer for anyone but myself is the spiritual sacrifice, the thoughts, the decisions. Creating your world outside of the collective. INDIVIDUATION. (you will see this word a lot in my writings) - mainly because this is where I am at in my journey ( at least I am aware of it now).

In order for us to find this true deep sacrifice that only YOU can answer for yourself, it takes diving deep into the waters. GET LOST! Yes human, get lost in that shit, feel it all, BUT, don't stay there. The harder part is pulling yourself out of the waters.

Out of the Waters

I think it's safe to say that many women can relate to getting lost in the soup of thoughts, ideas, and perceptions that flood our minds. The harder part for us is pulling ourselves out of it, because it feels good to be totally surrounded, IN THE AMOEBA.

In order to pull yourself out, DECIDE. This may seem simple but I am not talking a mere decision that is made, forgotten, disrespected, and disregarded. A decision that becomes your truth, something you live by until the awakening of a new truth.

Live and die by this truth. Fulfill it's mark in history because your wisdom is deeply rooted. Whatever is meant to come of it will be learned and accepted because now, you are grounded. This grounding is meant to be built on top of, don't be afraid of putting a weak brick down. You have the ability to repair and put something down stronger next time.

If the foundation falls, it was only meant to hold you up for the time that it did. Toil is necessary to build your castle. How scary can it be to endeavor into building a castle! What is you get halfway though and it tumbles? What if you finish and it doesn't look like you planned? These questions can never be answered, only feared. We become so obsessed with the fear in something that instead of putting our energy into building that solid foundation we are thinking about how it will fall.

They say:

"Where focus goes, energy flows. This is why we must always focus on what we want to see instead of worrying about what we don't want to see"

This is it. All of your questions will never be answered, otherwise life wouldn't be as appreciated when it does reward you.

FAITH.

Sorry to say, I am not here to give you the answer you're searching for, I am only here to dust your mirror off a bit.

Nothing great was ever created without stepping off the cliff and trusting you can fly. Invest in yourself. Don't let someone else tell you who you are anymore. Take that power back!