I Once Quit My First YouTube Channel

I'm not sure if I ever talked about this personal journey of mine when it came to my first YouTube channel, but I feel it's important to share this. 

I once started a YouTube channel, about 2 to 3 years ago. 

It turns out that I wasn't ready at the time. 

I was getting decent views at the time too, but I was not in the right mindset. 

I had been going through a lot during this period, and it was the first time when the pandemic had begun back in 2019. At first, I was thrilled with the thought of being home, and starting a YouTube channel, but what I didn't realize, was that I was secretly going crazy. 

Deep down, I couldn't stand the thought of not interacting with people anymore. The pandemic occurred during my college years, and I wasn't able to return back to college for my in person classes anymore. 

Everything was now online, and I couldn't stand it. 

The people I would have enjoyed meeting in person, was now a virtual meetup. That same magical feeling that I once felt in person was now gone, and I felt trapped in this odd Wonderland of the internet. 

To cope, I decided to start a YouTube channel. 

Like the one that I am currently working on, it was also a horror channel. 

However, I wasn't in the good head space for this. 

I was going through something else at the time too, and it had been addressed by my loved ones. 

Apparently I was not acting like myself anymore. 

I was always angry all the time, and I became so negative about everything, not really caring about doing anymore. This negativity also went to the channel, and instead of feeling like a fun project, it turned into a job that I absolutely hated. 

I used the channel as a coping mechanism, and that was my biggest mistake. 

This mindset ruined my motivation for the channel, and I started posting without a schedule, and I barely even stayed consistent. I only posted once a week, but even then, it felt so boring to me at the time. 

I felt like the channel was just lying there, and every time I was getting ready to post again, I only felt frustration. 

Eventually, when the pandemic was finally going back to normal, I decided to make a decision. 

I deleted my first YouTube channel. 

It turned out to be the best decision that I could have made, and I did not feel a thing. 

That told me that I was not ready for a YouTube channel. 

I went back to college, and things slowly went back to normal. I graduated college, and right now, as I'm looking for a job, I have currently started working part time. 

And I decided to start a brand new YouTube channel. 

This time, it truly felt like I was being myself.

Instead of putting on an act like I did with the first one, it felt so natural to be myself for the second channel. 

Now I have my own schedule, my own platform to upload my videos, and the best part, is that I love what I'm doing. 

I never thought that it was imperative to have a good mindset for something like this, and I'm glad that I experienced it firsthand, because having a good mindset is key to starting a huge project like this.

I'm now content with my new channel, and I'm determined to accomplish my goal of reaching 4,000 public watch hours!

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Thank you for reading!

Emy Quinn