Memories: 16 April 2023

16 April 2024

Another gorgeous day. I am exhausted as I slept little last night. Peter stopped by to gift me the clock, some wadding and an attractive glass bottle to use for a water bottle.

I had a quick cuddle with Miss Koko then they were off back home. He says he’ll stop by on Friday and leave Koko with me while he and a friend do some work. Awesome!

16 April 2023

I had a lovely day with Peter, Robyn, Ailsa and dear little Koko. Peter made a tiramisu trifle in honour of my birthday. It was delicious.

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I woke up at 7 am which is weird as I set my alarm for 8 am. My friend and neighbours Peter and Robyn are picking me up at 10 am to take me to see her new home and to also take me to visit Peter’s mother Ailsa who is 93.

Peter has made me a tiramisu trifle in honour of my recent birthday. Sweetness!

16 April 2021

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One of my most ardent Beloveds...little Koko. Robyn said I looked so pretty in my coral Dress that she wanted a photo of me with Koko. Delightful. A moment later and I was smothered in Koko kisses!

16 April 2020

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16 April 2019

16 April 2018

Crystal and Jarrod are here. We have packed up the boot of my car as (finally) Crystal has a room so I am able to declutter some of Crystal’s stuff. Woot!

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Up and at ‘em. Off to get my boobs squished and plopped on a plate and photographed because breast cancer is a bitch. I don’t have it and the 2 yearly radiation might give it to me but wtf? Better on the safe side!

It is a twist of irony that the only person gets to touch my Mama T mammaries is a doctor or a technician. Still a government sponsored violation in a way.

16 April 2017

I can't feel my feet. I should not wear beautiful stilettos or any impractical Footwear for my mad mosh fests. I should be staying home every weekend knitting navel fluff and getting old gracefully.

Um....Nahhh. Especially not navel fluff. Ewww.

The band was rather good tonight. I enjoyed myself until I got too tired to tolerate my crazy "stalkers" who for some peculiar reason amped up the attention tonight. It was hilarious but man I have lost some of my fending off skills.

The funniest part was when Melody ran towards me and pinned me against the wall and licked my face. I played along nicely by wrapping one ladylike leg over her buttocks and pretending to hump her. The crowd laughed.

Pity we are both actually straight women but if she keeps up that sexual tomfoolery I may never ever get laid with a red blooded male at the casino.

A brief concern only as I have not hunted in that small Hunting ground in well over 2 years. Too many people know me and I like myself too much to sleep with any of them. Falling in love with psychos can really throw you off your perch.

But no regrets. The Tanya is saving her libido for a man who won't play stupid ignorant childish games with her heart and mind.

It's gonna be a long long drought. Last time I did this celibacy gig it was 5 years. Grrr.

But I prefer to love my friends asexually (even if some of my wild ones get a little Hot) and come home to a nice cup of tea and my animals. Beautiful peace. No lies/no chaos/no dramas.

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I took Beauregard and Charlie for a walk around the neighbourhood. It was very pleasant. The weather is cool, not too hot, not too cold.

I had had a 3 hour nap to recharge my batteries after last night's wildness. So it was an effort to walk around but Beauregard really needed it and Charlie likes hitchhiking on my shoulder. He hates the noisy main road though. But I talked him through it.

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16 April 2016

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Utterly exhausted but another night of dancing is in order. I slept until 3 pm.

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5.03 am. Home safe. In a hot bath as I have a sore neck and a sore left buttock (sciatic nerve). From moshing out to Zombie by the Cranberries. Ramjet were playing. I had a lovely night. Soon it will be time to sleep.

16 April 2015

Yesterday I had my debrief. I told my Doctor that I was sick of being an Arons after 30 years of shit luck so I was seriously considering changing my name.

I told him I had considered changing my name to Rosenthal as I have some of that china from my Mum and it is eggshell delicate, precious, fragile, exquisite but strong as it holds scalding hot tea. I said it reminded me of my core essence, vulnerable, fragile but strong and beautiful.

I then said that I couldn't take on the Rosenthal name after the BS Leah put me through!

He got rather excited and suggested that I take on his father's original name, Adelson. He said it was a popular name amongst English jews and that way he and I would always have a Bond.

I was really amazed. I mean, we already have a wonderful Doctor- patient bond. We are rather fond of each other, having built up trust in the past 3 years.

I wanted to joke about Transference but a little bit of healthy transference is acceptable in therapy.

I am actually quite chuffed that my Dr thinks so highly of me he would be happy to have me bear his former Surname. Very cute! It could bring me luck as obviously his father managed to successfully raise well-rounded and successful children, with a psychiatrist for a son! "My son, the Doctor is not drowning, he is Waving!"

Jarrod says it is outrageous and I should stick with Arons after 30 years. I guess so! It has been my name for so long it's hard to imagine being any other name. My long ago deceased parents in law were very good to me. Unlike the rest of that horrible abusive toxic family. Ughhh.

Anyway, as Jarrod pointed out, my life was shit as a Phillips and continued to be shit as an Arons. It was not the names but the people surrounding me that were the problem. True!

What's in a name?!

I could change it to Tanya Trixie Tinkerbelle Mau-mau of Holland Park Forest (continue the ill-bred pussy dynasty) but....nooo! It is enough I live in the Cats' house.

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7.25 pm just had early dinner or late breakfast (not sure which!). Turkish bread topped with semi-dried tomatoes, chicken and cheese. Very oily but Yummy. Chasing it down with 2 glasses of Jack Daniels and coke.

I am extremely happy! I got some time in my garden this arvo. I planted the black pansies, the parsley and the sweet basil. I moved Frieda's coop and tabs and Elvira's as well. Topped up their laying mash. Watered the garden which was very dry.

I feel much better after spending time outside in my garden.

1.58 am. I just now, this very moment, have a craving for chocolate. Hmmm. Being triggered about my former family makes me want to comfort feed Miss Five.

Seems reasonable. Time to schluff before Miss Five gets to throw a tantrum. Inner children can be Mean lmao. It's ok cos Ms Fifty has the last glass of wine. Knock myself out, Kid.

Nil Carborendum Et Bastardoes and Wheeeeeeee!

16 April 2011

Blah day, but had a lovely chat to Margaret and little Neo. Feeling very fractious and bored but no money to go anywhere or do anything so been watching old episodes on ABC I view for something to pass the time! I need to party on!

16 April 2010

Crystal is currently feeding the young possum. Happiness is a fully-fed possum, amongst other creature comforts LOL

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A stressful hectic day, spent preparing documents for my lawyer and photocopying them and posting them. So the process is under way and I am looking forward to a new beginning. (Kind of feel mentally exhausted as it is hard to read all the awful stuff Buck said about me etc but the upside is, he's dead and can never hurt me again).

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Filled out the forms and gathered 'evidence' for lawyer today and tonight. Mentally drained now. Will photocopy and post to him tomorrow so hope to hear positive news back by end of next week....Yayyyyy!

From the comment section:

Sylvia Shine (my little English Jewish Rose Champion who always encouraged me!)

TO TANYA----TAROT-TAROT ON THE WALL,WHOSE THE FAIREST OF THEM ALL[TANYA]HOPE THE TAROT IS ACCURATE-----LUCK,IS ALL YOU NEED,YES IT'S COMING YOUR WAY,I FEEL IT IN MY WATER[NO,IN MY HEART]THE HOME IM IN FOR THIS MONTH,IS ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL.LOVE SYLVIA X X X

Me: Hugs Sylvia, I hope your water in your heart is right LOL I also feel quite positive as it is such a miracle to even find a lawyer willing to work for me for a change. Yayyy!

I'm glad you are having a nice time in the Home. I remember the last one really made you feel terrible. So this is good news that you are enjoying it this time. love, Tanya xxx

Sylvia: TANYA,GOOD NEWS,JUST LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE SEE HOW YOU GOT RE-UNITED WITH MITZI,HOW THE OLD DOG WENT FIRST,WHOEVER THOUGHT THAT WOULD HAPPEN?NOW WE WILL PRAY,ALL WILL GO YOUR WAY ,YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON,MAYBE HE WILL LISTEN TO YOUR PRAYERS PLEASE GOD

TANYA,I MUST JUST TELL YOU,IT'S A BEAUTIFUL OLD ANCESTRIAL HOME,STAFF ARE WONDERFUL,FOOD MENU'S,TO DIE FOR,HAPPY HOUR EVERY DAY 5-30PM FRIDAY,BEFORE LUNCH,SHERRY& NIBBLES,CAN OU WONDER,THEY ALL HAVE GROBBA TOOKARSES,IF IM HERE TOO LONG,MINE WILL ALSO EXPAND[I'M SURE]AND WHO BLEEDING CARES[NOT ME]I'M GOING TO STRIKE,WHILE THE IRONS HOT,&ENJOY EVERY MINUTEON THAT NOTE TA-TA LOVE YA SYLVIA X X X X X X

Me: Sylvia your Home sounds delightful...good food, good company and grobbener toches's are adorable (more to squeeze, that's my story and I'm sticking to it LOL) Enjoy the lovely happy times, and have an extra serving of everything for me! Love you too my darling xxx

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My darling talented and beautiful daughter has her Graduation Ceremony at USQ in Toowoomba on Saturday. I am so very proud of her achievements, hard work and dedication and can hardly wait to see her in her Cap and Gown. Mazel Tov, Crystal. I love you dearly. xxxx

From the comment section:

Sylvia Shine (of Blessèd memory):

WSHING CRYSTAL EVRY SUCCESS MAY SHE SUCCEED IN SHE UNDERTAKES,PG,HER LIFE WILL NEVER EVER.AND I TRULY MEVERY THING EAN EVER,HAVE THE HARD KICKS,YOU MANAGED[UNFORTUNATELY]TO PICK UP,ALONG THE WAY,WILL BE THINKING OF YOU SATURDAY. MAZEL-TOV

SORRY 'CRYSTAL'HALF MY WORDS,HAVE GON HAYWIRE,TANA,THINKING OF YOU TOO,THE HARD KICKS WERE MEANT TO YOU, I DONT KNOW,WHATS HAPPENING TO THIS KEY BOARD,YOU WILL UNDERSTAND,I'M SURE X X X X X X X X X

Me: It's ok love, I certainly have had plenty of hard kicks, knocks, savage beatings and just plain bad luck along with the usual stresses, misunderstandings, underhanded dealings and crap that Life metes out to us fragile humans.

My kids have had to suffer along with me at the many unpleasant things (this being euphemistic) I have endured in my entire life, but this is all the more reason to Celebrate Crystal's success as she has overcome her wretched suffering mother's shitty life and gone ahead and succeeded at what she truly loves...Acting/Directing/Writing/Choreography/Stage Combat/Clowning/Singing. I know she is and will continue to be the very best performer and I know she takes pride and courage from her work.

My one and only Blessing from Hashem has been the gift of my beautiful daughters and seeing them shine in their own moments of Glory and Victory and Accomplishment is the best Naches I can ever Shep! or is it Schlep LOL.

Looking forward to tomorrow's magnificence! xxxxxx

Ohhh and of course, my other blessings apart from my daughters are my beautiful, caring, supportive friends who love me and accept me for who I am a person! This is the most precious gift. Oh and my animals....wouldn't want to be without them!

Copyright Tanya Désirée Arons