The World I Was Safe In

Suddenly, I woke up and found myself in between a woman's legs but not like I was having sex but it was more like I was resting my head in her lap at first and I took a nap unintentionally. The first thing I noticed was that the woman is barefoot and her toenails were painted red, her legs were beautiful as well. Her legs weren't super toned or anything, they were fit and I could tell just by laying there that her legs were a little hard so I always moved up to her thighs for a more comfortable feel. She was wearing denim high waisted short shorts as well because, for some reason, I always know how denim feels.

When I came to, I didn't know where I was but something told me that I didn't need to see who I was with immediately even though in real life, that's exactly what I'd do to see if I'm safe or not. I saw that I was in the green room on the floor or we were backstage and I must've laid down from being exhausted after performing for something but if I had to guess, maybe I was in a play with this gal.

Once I was able to put it all together in regards to where I was, I heard a sweet voice say something to me in a tender way while she cradled my head and caressed my cheeks with her hands, "Hey there, sleepyhead." I look up and I couldn't believe who it was that I napped with, it was Rebecca Ferguson from movies I've seen like Mission Impossible - Rogue Nation, Mission Impossible - Fallout, and Doctor Sleep. She was wearing a white tank top, looking insanely gorgeous as ever plus given the fact that we were in a theatre, it tends to get pretty hot in there sometimes.

I was so happy I could've got up and started to dance. There was also this feeling where things felt vastly different from the world I live in now because in the world I live in, I have depression and I only go for cuddles but never for a relationship because I got duped by a gal who led me on and went for another gal so I've been scarred from that for a while. Anyways, after I woke up, I started hanging out with Rebecca and it was so much fun but first, we got a few cuddles and kisses out of the way.

I couldn't believe that I was dating Rebecca Ferguson, we were even bantering back and forth. We were making each other laugh and having a good time, I couldn't believe it but the good times couldn't last forever because it turned out to be a dream when I woke up but for the second time. It was one of those dreams you didn't think you could have and it just happens out of nowhere. It felt like I was being genuinely comforted for the first time in a long time.

What I'm trying to say from this is that my depression can get so bad that sometimes my brain will give me a break when I manage to sleep, at least when I can sleep. I guess when I went to sleep, I was feeling so bummed out about something that my mind wanted to give me a little hope that I can still have a relationship even though I have depression but that doesn't mean being in love and having a romantic relationship will take my depression away. Maybe it just means it'll be a pretty good help to have someone that not only I love but they love me as well and that I can talk to them about stuff like this since trust will be there too.