Tap in...

If he were to try to tap into my energy in my mind he may think I would not want to be with him considering our past. Especially in the capacity of a “committed relationship.”

I think ultimately he may think that it’s to late to be together. I think that maybe he feels like no matter what I will never truly forgive him. He may also feel that I may not look at him the way he truly wants me to look at him. He would hope that I would truly love him for who he is as a person before and who he is as a celebrity. I think that if he wants to tap in to my energy he would possibly...

Think that I do not really love him. He may also think that I may “...in the end” still be looking for something from him like most women do.

Ultimately he will just find that not only would I genuinely love him but that I could find it in my heart to trust him. He may think that I may not be 100% attracted to him considering he is now a bit up in age. He may think that because we have maintained a sexual relationship that I may not be able to look past it and move into a regular or romantic relationship with him. Furthermore, be capable of living under his lifestyle as a celebrity couple. He may also be concerned that I may not be able to meet those standards of what most celebrity females are. All Nip/Tuck to perfection let alone most of them has sold their soul for the very fortune to afford it. For that I think that I would possibly not be 100% interested in him enough to undergo things that can alter me and my lifestyle in order to be with him. He may tap in and feel that I may still be thinking about his past with his ex girlfriend whom he held in the limelight for so long in front of so many people around the world and I believe his biggest burden on his heart is that I could never forgive him for leaving me behind and forcing me to see and experience all those things that he displayed of their relationship.

Sidenote: This part made me cry.

...In the depths of my heart he made me fell like I could never forgive him for the entire time we spent separated from each other because he initiated the separation and he entered a relationship first. Ultimately he may also be concerned about our recent endeavors where we’ve strictly been having a sexual relationship and those jokes he’d make about us doing some sort of courtship that never played out, that never happened will feel guilty about it therefore thinking I would never take him seriously.