How 9/11 Crushed My 12 Year Old Soul...

HOW 9/11 CRUSHED MY 12 YEAR OLD SOUL…

Listen to me, 9/11 is a DEEP wound for a LOT of us. A part of my 12 year old childlike innocence about the world was TAKEN from me on that day…I can’t believe how some people around right now don’t understand how traumatizing 9/11 was for ALL Americans on that day…even if we didn’t know anyone personally. The reason I bring this up is because a lot of people have been talking about 9/11 lately. Some have asked things like "how was everyone all watching TV live as this happened?". Let me explain to you, America was much different pre 9/11. ..

That day everyone in the United States stopped what they were doing and immediately turned on the TV. We did at school, everyone did, everywhere. We all watched it as it was happening. I was 12 and I saw adults stuck at the top jumping off the building to their deaths. It was the worst thing I’ve ever seen, and it hurt my soul. More than anything in this world, to see a world that I thought was safe and beautiful and wonderful be torn apart that day, was extremely traumatizing.

After that day, the United States was NEVER the same, and we still aren’t the same. We will never have the pre 9/11 USA again, and that makes millennials like me sad who had to grow up in school during all of the War on Terror and everything. I never got to be an adult in the America before 9/11, and I wish I would have been able to. I feel like America would have prospered more. Our economy would have been better. Now, it’s like I don’t even know what this place is I live. It’s heartbreaking to be an American if you were around on that day and old enough to understand it, because we knew it would never go back to the way it was ever again and it didn’t. That’s always hurt. Always.

and the weeks after were even more difficult….watching the rescue efforts every day NON STOP on the news…it was tragedy every single day for WEEKS…We witnessed the fall of the United States during our adolescence. We never had a solid grasp of what the world could have been like, because all we saw was terror and tragedy everyday on the news.

Then as the years went on, I had to watch the world around me turn completely EVIL. And I didn’t think people could be so evil. The world was never the same after that. The world broke my little 12 year old heart and I’ve never healed from that…🥺💔

How did millennials get so fucked up in the head? Look at what we had to endure during the time in our life where WE were supposed to feel safe and protected! No wonder we have problems with jobs, and mental health, and functioning in society! We had to sit there and understand how the world was going to continue after something so terrible. As a generation, we were absolutely traumatized by that if we were old enough to understand it.

My point is, that stuff impacts kids more than many people realize. Adults never learn how much something can traumatize children. My 12 year old self is still inside me asking WHY did they have to crash those planes into those buildings and hurt innocent people…I STILL have that inside me. Doesn’t go away. It’s just buried underneath the rubble of my own lost American Dreams…much like the rubble of ground zero…it all became dust...