For those of you who may not know, Emotional Numbness is something you can get from certain illnesses (Depression and Anxiety being two), stress, PTSD, or even medications. (There are more causes, but these are the basics)
Me, at 21 years old, finding out that my mother was pregnant was quite the shock. I had thought that the next baby in the family would be my own in a few years, not my mother's. Regardless, the news gave me a change of heart, and I moved back home in the summer of 2016. Living at home with my mom and dad was not a tragedy. I was able to save on rent and continue to go to college online while being close to my family. The immediate downfall was that I was leaving my job behind.
“There is something so wrong about this,” I thought as I drove the hour long distance between Sebastian’s house and mine. He had been a family friend for years, close friends with my father, and was always a part of my life when I was younger. When he texted me the other day asking me for help getting back into a studying routine, it just seemed natural. Now, though, as the journey to his place continued closer to the end, I felt an uneasy feeling in my stomach.
Money or cash is a universally accepted means of buying things, paying bills, purchasing tickets, food items, etc. If you are a young lady who aspires to sustain expensive education, go on vacations and fancy some gadgets & gifts, then you might run into financial issues and seek any arrangements.
I have had an email pal since February 2014. We met, by chance, on a forum for camgirls, porn performers, and other types of "internet sex workers." I wrote a short reply to her forum post but then I could not help but private message her a barrage of more unsolicited and personal advice, because I saw myself so clearly in her (except that I have never done porn).
Everyone's life seems to be insane now. Where you are living, where you are located, how you deal or cope can change in a heartbeat. I am still learning myself, and in that, I am still learning about why and when I lose my shit. I have zero patience for people who don't do what they say they will do, RIGHT then. It's weird. I do get that life gets in the way, but when my work, livelihood, and home depend on it, I will lose it. I can't cope with liars either, at all. I feel it in my bones, even if you are just trying to surprise me.
There is nothing like running into an ex when you finally have your shit together! Hair on point, skin hydrated and glowing, sundress accentuating all your curves and you're feeling sexy 'cuz you're not wearing panties! Ole loose booty! Plus your business is booming, and you have a nice car that your man washed and shined up for you this morning. Oh honey, you are ready to speak to that ex! You're not ducking and dodging him trying to get out of the store before he notices you. Oh no, you're walking right in the line of sight of the man who walked away from you because your career wasn't taking off as fast as he thought it should. The one who said he's a professional and needs a woman who is on his level. You're ready to let him see how you're doing, how you've leveled up.
Khyle takes out his keys for his bike, and looks down at his phone.
"Where are we?" I ask as I get out of the car looking around me.
At times when we are in a relationship, we may enter a phase where our partner has a lower sexual appetite than we do. If you enter one of those phases, it may be good to have an idea of what could be causing the “I’m just not in the mood right now,” as well as having solutions to experiment with.
You meet someone new and it’s fun. They make you laugh and feel confident, happy. For a few weeks, you feel like you’re on the top of the world and you never want to get down. But then… they mention it.
I never knew you could be addicted to love. This love could be the light in you or the love that kills you. Your drug is so addicting. I always need more. I always want more. There is always more to have from you.