B.D.S.M

I love it and I need it and I want it too much. I don’t show it too much because I feel like people would judge me that I am crazy like a pornstar. or many things like that. I don’t know what it’s just me you know. I love it but trust me, it’s the most annoying feeling. to me, it’s the feeling of knowing something inside your head and you just have to dream it in your head. my head is full or sexual shit. I love my pansexual self and I am proud to be a pansexual transgender woman of color. I love it because it’s the vibe that makes me feel comfortable and making eyes feeling comfortable would be the feeling that I would be best at. I know that when it comes to my heart knowing that it’s okay to be who you are while for some people, it’s not, Let me tell you, it’s okay. I love that for everyone. Everyone is different.

We cope through things differently. it can be similar. the feeling of watching porn inside your head and your ability to see it through your imagination is like damn that’s messed to to be really addicted to that.

How many people are there in total?

I asked myself this

I know it’s crazy to feel that but also think about it.

I need to think about this a lot

But at the same time I need to feel it.

it’s getting heavy

I would do research on the internet and I would say, there are approximately 7 million people.

I feel it because there are a lot of people you see that are attractive to them and you find them attractive. there are bad bitches everywhere and everywhere I see, it’s amazing. I pretend that I go to the club looking at other people’s dicks prints and vagina prints. I can see right through it. I don’t know why and I don’t know how I do things like that.

Is this my ultimate secret power?

Wow I don’t even know. I am crying myself to this because it’s the thing that when it comes to feeling that, I feel like I know that I am crazy about it and it’s bad

but at the same time, I know that's not a bad thing to do. maybe people think about it all the time and they are afraid of it. you know that I talked to myself about this. I would talk to my imaginary friend since no one is there to talk about it. I would be too scared because I would be too happy that I would not talk about it anymore. but at the same time, I am sad that I cannot say words.

It's the time to know that I am an obsessive type of person who sees everyone hot and me wishing that I would kiss every person, even strangers I don't even know.

That is crazy and I am very sorry to say all of this stuff.

it's the truth, and it’s my secret.

I love my secrets because I don't enact to share it all unless I have the full ability to something that would take days and days knowing that I would take my extra extra time to feel the wind getting pressuring me to say it even though the thigh sky is very scary to say it. For me, I would say something to my best friend and I'd do something. the body is shaking really hard. it's the ticklish feeling in every part of your body and I would pretend to shit on myself. There are a lot of people who see me as an inspirational person because they know that i am a good role model to everyone. but the problem me tell you something and when I mean you, i meant everyone who is reading this, I would like to say that,

I ain't perfect and I know y’all would feel the same way or would not feel the same way.

I secretly love BDSM.

I love it because I know things inside my imagination. I see that everyone is the expectation versus reality.

I would say to my partner, let’s get nasty :)

I am kinky and let me tell you; I am embracing my high sexual drive and I love it. it’s the best possible way to overcome struggles.

Let's say what it stands for, shall we, darling?

B AND D - BONDAGE AND DISCIPLINE

D AND S - DOMINATION AND SUBMISSION

S AND M - SADNESS AND MASOCHISM